When you are a senior in college

"Senior coming through!!"

When you're so close to getting your bachelor's degree from your alma mater and saying goodbye to your beloved campus forever, you get this weird feeling in your stomach.

a picture of me taken in one of my favorite places in the campus of YTU

The idea of the supposedly "best" years coming to and end, and knowing there is no rainbow at the end of that tunnel especially if you don't know what the fork you are going to do after is hella stressful. And you know what is more stressful? When your absolute nut-job friends start freaking out too. That's when you know things are starting to get riled up.

But yes, I am finally graduating. After 4 years of extreme amount of (uhm.. well..) effort and time put into clas... campus and friendships:) it is finally time to move on with my life and stop leeching off of my parents, paddle my own canooe.

We all know where this will go very soon.

Me finding an okay job, barely scraping by and having just enough money to get by, secretly envying those stay-at-home wives with rich husbands..

That, should not be my destiny, I can't help but think to myself.

So I have to write more, so much more to get my writing straight and smoother.

I have to speak a little louder to get my voice heard.

I have to work harder (on things I want) so in 5 years I don't end up regretting my choices.

However.

I know there is more to life than getting a decent job, reaching your ultimate level, striking to be your best self, constantly trying to change yourself and constantly being shackled by your failure.

There is more to life, like accepting yourself as you are. Like being content in the present. Like helping, sharing, growing.

Serving to the community.

I have been saying this for a long period of time, "In a world that is hedonist, it's a virtue to be altruistic."

So it's my dream to not be the blueprint of how 20-year-olds should act, but how I can be myself without needing any validation or approval, loving being alone and being with others. Being me.